Love affairs

I was hoping for more.
Why did u wrote that for me when u didn't mean it at all?
U make me wonder all the time and screw up everything around me.
I thought it was true but it actually doesn't.
It's another heart-breaking moment when I know,
I will never able to step in ur world.
We are two different people. Totally different.
U born in that kind of world but I wasn't.
How can god fools me with all this...
If it's not what I thought it supposed to be,
Then why did u brought him to me?
I can be doubtful, I'm suck. Just like that.

November.

Sometimes I feel like I'm so naive.
To believe all the thing u've ever done to me was so true.
I'm done. With everything.
I need to make this stop.
I need to stop thinking.
Everytime whenever I see hopes,
But it actually turns out dissapoinment.
This is so tiring.
Chasing u and got nothing...
Cause' I'm just not good enough
To make u to love me.